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Fuck you November...fuck you good and hard. [19 Nov 2008|08:55am]
mood // Fuck scared, we were terrified

Ok just off the top of my dome in this month alone. I have practically lost all my hours making it impossible to pay next months rent, I've realized my room mate is annoying as all sin, I ended things pretty badly with Brittani assuring she never call again, especially after what I said to her. I now know my very best friend Nelson is rather selfish and mostly only looks after himself. I had to break into my own apartment by climbing up a 3 story building in the freezing rain. (That makes near death experiecnce number 1.) Though it was exciting because me and my friend al totally got our spiderman skills on that day I do NOT recommend doing that to anyone else. It was extremely dumb and dangerous. Ok, back to november..Find out my father has cancer, my mother is suffering from depression now that both her sons are gone. Oh and get this, my apartment building almost burns to the ground;

Just last night I finally found another part time job with Al to help with the bills, but driving back my car starts to make weird noises and smoke comes out so I pull over on the side of the highway. I try to start it again but it sounds horrible so I call Al to pick me up. I leave a note in the car saying that I was having engine problems and will get it towed tomorrow, but when Al and I get back to my place everyone is telling me I have to go back and get it because nj department of transportation is a building full of douches and they will tow it anyway.

Now at roughly 12 in the morning Al, Nick, and myself drive all the way to the car which is at least a half hour away and try to figure out what to do. It won't start up again, and we see it's leaking oil so we pull up to a gas station and I have to buy some. We get back to the car put in the oil and cross our fingers. But as we try to start the car the battery dies out (I'm not even making this up.)
So now we have to jump the battery but by the time we do that the 4 bottles of oil that I bought have completely poured out of the engine. Needless to say I was a lil frustrated. We decide to put the car in neutral and push this old ass mercedes benz a 1/4 mile to the nearest exit. Trust me I say this car was heavy, it's steel since it was made before cars were made of the cheap poly plastic crap they are now.

They're pushing and I'm behind the wheel trying my best to steer it, but I see we're getting closer and closer to the actual highway, both of them are screaming at me to turn it and I'm yelling I'm trying. Just then a car zooms past us by a foot or so and both nick and al jump out of the way, but it gets better. Not but 3 seconds after that car nearly hits me a SEMI-TRUCK comes speeding down and cracks off my side mirror. It was that fucking close to me!! I swear to you a couple more inches to the right and he would have completely hit me and I would have died. I mean he tore that mirror clean off. I think we all shit a brick when that happened, I know I was at a loss for words. All you could hear was a "wtf" and girlish scream. I won't say who among us shouted what because frankly that's not important.

We still had to push the car to a gas station or a building parking lot so the mission continued even though in our minds we're freaking out because we all almost just died. You would think that would be enough danger for one night, but oh you'd be wrong. I'm Herro Raymond, if I do something I do it right. Nick and Al get pretty tired from pushing the car so we come up with the bright idea of keeping my car in neutral and pushing it with nicks car. Seems simple enough right??? Wrong. Dead wrong. You see we basked in joy as we made to the exit in lightning speed but forgot that the exit goes downhill. As I'm speeding down this exit I really think to myself, "this is it... this is how I'm gonna die. I did NOT see this coming!"

It wasn't like I was on the side of the road anymore, I was on an exit so I couldn't hit my brakes or I'd get smashed into from the back, and furthermore I couldn't lose that momentum or we'd really be stuck, so I steered a car that was out of my control down a hill and past an intersection. If it wasn't 2 in the morning I know that would've been it for me. Luckily I made it in one piece down the ramp, I couldn't say the same for my car. We make it to an office building and now have to push this 2 ton tank uphill into the parking lot. We were all dead tired by the end of this ordeal and I almost died twice! That semi shit was scary as hell, I really almost got cut in half by that thing.

I've realized I almost have a near-death experience one a month, but I'm going on once a week in november. I know I said I'm an adventure junkie but damnit. To end the list of november and keep in mind this is just so far we still have roughly 2 weeks left. I almost died again and now I without a doubt need a new car. This is very troublesome, I think Ima do something safe now like read or listen to music.


Herro Raymond


Btw, it was scary but we all laughed about it on the way back home.

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Be Strong [18 Nov 2008|11:01pm]
A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed.

He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband tells his wife:

"Listen, this guy's an escaped convict, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you."

To which his wife responds: "He wasn't kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any Vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"
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Hey J-J-Jaded, You Got Your Mama's Style But You're Yesterday's Child To Me. [15 Nov 2008|02:12pm]
mood // distressed
music // Long Kiss Goodbye; by Halcali

I'm making a sort of public version, why.. Idk, just because I suppose. I haven't written an entry about what I'm feeling in a while, they've just kinda been current events. So I've been struggling with the decisions I've made, trying to figure out if they're the right ones. I know there's no point in second guessing myself but I'm only a demi-god so it's natural that I'm unsure of some choices. There are people out there who can just cast away people of great significance to them as if they were nothing. I'm jealous and dispise this ability at the same time. When I think about it, it would be great to do that at the end of a relationship. Especially during the hard times. Who wants to deal with the heartbreak... though I still feel it's something we all must go through to truly get over it and eventually become stronger. Still if someone means so much to you, how can you cast them aside like that?? As much as I try to figure it out I feel I'll never really understand it.

Sometimes I think I'd rather be lied to, though we all want the truth with our partner we also just want them to say what we want to hear. Was it stupid and naive? Probably but I just wanted to believe in the fairytale ending. The flame I once had that burned so brightly, so innocently, and so pure believeing that love conquers over all has dimmed to only a flicker. I fear that I've just finally grown up and stopped believeing in happy endings. I don't know if that makes me a cynic or skeptic, but I doubt I could go into another relationship with the same resolve or hope. Now I think I would just prepare myself for the inetivable end. It might be the cowards way out but I'm too afraid to endure the pains I know come with a breakup. If you don't put yourself completely out there, how bad could it really hurt. I think that's the consensus with our generation. "Don't give it your all, because you know odds are it won't work out." When in truth that mentality dooms relationships before they even begin. I hated thinking like that but how can I possibly keep on going on like this with my defenses down when the rest of the nation is fully armed?

Whatever though, this is all just a rant to help clear my head. I'll keep ya posted.


Herro Raymond




"Porcelain
Are you wasting away in your skin?
Are you missing the love of your kin,
Drifting and floating and fading away

Porcelain
Do you smell like a girl when you smile?
Can you bear not to share with your child,
Drifting and floating and fading away

Porcelain
Do you carry the moon in your womb?
Someone said that you're fading too soon,
Drifting and floating and fading away."

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The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire! We don't need no water let the mother fucker burn! [14 Nov 2008|03:22am]
mood // relieved
music // What's my age Again; by Blink 182

So our apartment building caught on fire today. I was sittin down watching Martin when I hear a fire alarm go off, i figured it was from a neighbor cooking or something so i didn't pay it much mind, but then I see my room mate nick walk out into the hall way and come back in. He tells me I need to get my stuff and head out side with with him. When I poke my head out to see what the big deal is about I see the entire hallway is filled with smoke. I didn't know how bad it was but I wasn't about to leave my possesions, they're irraplacable. I head down stairs to find all my neighbors standing outside too, then the police come. The smoke was coming out of one of the apartments on the first floor and didn't seem too terrible so I knew it wouldn't reach us on the 3rd. Like 5 fire trucks came along with 4 or 5 cop cars. They told us we couldn't go anywhere near the building as it was filling up with smoke rather quickly. We were standing out there for a long time and it was freezing. They say a water heater caught on fire and that's what started it, but all I know it I was out there for ovet three hours and on top of that it started to rain. Luckily no one was hurt and that's really what matters but all I know is the ppl who's apartment got damaged were so upset, their place got ruined. I'll keep ya posted.


~LaTeR dAyZ~

Herro

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Bob In Trouble [11 Nov 2008|07:50pm]
Bob was in a lot of trouble. He forgot his wedding anniversary. His wife was
really pissed, and started to give him the business.

She told him "Tomorrow morning, I expect to find a gift in the
driveway that goes from 0 to 200 in 6 seconds AND IT BETTER BE THERE !!"

The next morning he got up early and left for work. When his wife woke
up, she looked out the window and sure enough there was a box
gift-wrapped in the middle of the driveway.

Confused, the wife put on her robe and ran out to the driveway, brought
the box back in the house.

She opened it and found a brand new bathroom scale.

Bob has been missing since Friday.
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Yes We Can! [06 Nov 2008|12:30am]
mood // indescribable

I don't have to move to Japan!! Though I might someday in my life.. Anyway Obama won!!!!!!! Change is on the way people, good change. He has opened up so many doors for people of all age, race, and gender. I have never believed in a president like I do in this man and I'm thankful to be alive during this time.


Where were you when Obama became president and changed the world?


Greg Raymond

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Barack The Vote! [05 Nov 2008|01:52am]
mood // hopeful

EVERYONE needs to get out there and vote regardless of who it's for *cough* (barack) *cough* go out and vote. Make your voice heard, this is honestly one of the most important elections in history and I'm not saying that solely because one of the nominees is black, he's also intelligent, well spoken, and passionate. It will show our strives in acceptance of other people and their races if our nations leader is another race. I'm not knocking our white presidents so far besides bush, many of them have been amazing. I just think it would really show how far along we've come if a another race OR another gender was in the white house. Go make a difference people!


P.S. if Mccain wins I'm moving to Japan.

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3 Kinds [03 Nov 2008|01:30pm]
A family is at the dinner table. The son asks his father, "Dad, how many kinds of boobs are there?"

The father, surprised, answers, "Well, son, there's three kinds of breasts. In her twenties, a woman's breasts are like melons, round and firm. In her thirties to forties, they are like pears, still nice but hanging a bit. After fifty, they are like onions."

"Onions?" asks the boy.

"Yes," said the father, "you see them and they make you cry."

This infuriated his wife and daughter so the daughter said, "Mom, how many kinds of willies are there?"

The mother, surprised, smiles and answers, "Well dear, a man goes through three phases. In his twenties, his willie is like an oak tree, mighty and hard. In his thirties and forties, it is a birch, flexible but still reliable. After his fifties, it is like an old Christmas tree."

"A Christmas tree?"

"Yes, dead from the root up and the balls are for decoration only."
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Halloween 08' [02 Nov 2008|11:03pm]
mood // nerdy
music // Sweetest Love; by Robin Thicke

Well the day started out easy enough, we drove to pway to finish up al's costume and meet up with T and Nelson. Then we chilled over nelson's house for a couple hours while putting our costumes together. I went as "dead presidents", nelson was al pacinio from "carlito's way", T was a ninja, and Moody was... well i don't really know but at least he dressed up. We all went trick or treating for a couple hours to get some candy. Yes trick or treatin damnit! You're never too old, and free candy is FREE candy. After that we went to a bar but none of us drinked I think we just wanted to see what was going on in there, after that we went to an arcade just to see some elaborate cosutumes, then to a house party of al's ex g/f, then back to the bar, then to walmart, then back to the party, etc... we went all around and just had a good time. I hope everyone else did the same.

Later Dayz


Herro

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Want Some? Get Some! [02 Nov 2008|11:02pm]
mood // bouncy

Happy Halloween everybody, gets lots of candy and drink till you can't remember what you did the night before.

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Gettin Ready [29 Oct 2008|11:56am]
mood // productive

Today Al and I went costume shopping for halloween, we drove all around town looking for what we needed. Originally our little group were gonna be jabbawockees from the show america's best dance crew but we waited to long and all the masks were sold out. I was so pissed about that because we had said we were gonna do this for weeks. We each had to do our own thing and I decided to be a character from the movie dead presidents from when they robbed the back. It was pretty easy, I just needed an all black outfit and some face paint. Al went as a V for vendetta/ afro/ grim reaper kind of thing. Didn't make much sense to me but what do i know. I'm ready for hallows eve.


Herro

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If Beauty is a Test You Already Aced It. [25 Oct 2008|09:40pm]
mood // content

I've been busting my ass at work this week, if I'm not opening I'm closing and my car is getting fixed so getting around has proven to be rather difficult at times. Luckily I've been making due though with a lil help from Al. The paycheck better be fat though because rent time is right around the corner and when you live on your own like this there is no excuses on why you don't have the money. I've had some close calls at the job though. When you're by yourself it's either sink or swim, but thank god it hasn't been anything I couldn't handle yet. Anyway I'll keep ya posted.

Herro

The Coffin
A man is walking home alone late one foggy Halloween night, when behind him he hears:
BUMP... BUMP... BUMP...
Walking faster, he looks back and through the fog he makes out the image of an upright casket banging its way down the middle of the street toward him.

BUMP... BUMP... BUMP...
Terrified, the man begins to run toward his home, the casket bouncing quickly behind him.
FASTER... FASTER... BUMP... BUMP... BUMP....
He runs up to his door, fumbles with his keys, opens the door, rushes in, slams and locks the door behind him. However, the casket crashes through his door, with the lid of the casket clapping.
clappity-BUMP...clappity-BUMP... clappity-BUMP...
on his heels, as the terrified man runs.

Rushing upstairs to the bathroom, he locks himself in. His heart is pounding; his head is reeling; his breath is coming in sobbing gasps.

With a loud CRASH the casket breaks down the door.
Bumping and clapping toward him.
The man screams and reaches for something, anything...

All he can find is a box of cough drops! Desperate, he throws the cough drops at the coffin ...

...and...of...course,

...the coffin stops!


(Tell me that wasn't one of those moments where can literally hear the drums go off in your head, duh duh dun dshh)

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Poker Game [22 Oct 2008|09:39pm]
mood // good

We hosted a lil poker game where the buy in was 25 dollars and who ever won would be winning roughly 250 dollars. Other ppl came to just to chill but it was a fun night, we played poker, video games, and guitar hero all night. I went to bed around 4 in the morning and ppl were still here so I don't even know when it ended. I think we're gonna do it again sometime.

Herro

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Lucky Me [21 Oct 2008|01:09am]
mood // pissed off

I've been sick with a cold for the past 2 weeks, I think I'm having a relapse of my colitis with all these stomache cramps I've been having, and when I was driving to a garage to fix my transmission hose one of my tire exploded. So having enough money to pay next months rent is questionable.

Life is Good.


Herro

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And Maybe You're Gonna Be the One That Saves Me, Cuz Afterall You're My Wonderwall. [18 Oct 2008|01:10am]
mood // Troubled
music // Knocks Me Off My Feet; by Stevie Wonder

Maybe it's just me but I feel like the things that could make me happiest the most are both on completely different sides of the bar. It's only now that I'm really starting to see this. A part wants it all like every real man does. We wanna be the best and must prove it, some men act on that urge more than others but it's in all of us, probably for women too but I can only speak on behalf of men. I wanna rule the world because I believe I can turn it into a better place, so half of me would be happy with this journey of world conquest. Also because I know that would be one hell of an adventure and we all know how I'm an adventure junkie, I can just imagine all the danger now and it gives me goosebumps...

Then there's the other side of me that would be perfectly content with just getting a lil spot of land to call my own on this planet and live on it peacefully with my family. When one half of me wants to scale buildings pretending to be batman, the other wants to pop in a movie and cuddle up with my girl on a couch. It sounds so peaceful, so relaxing that it makes me smile. I haven't had much of either lately but good things come to those who wait right? Who wouldn't wanna wait for that? I know what kind of person I am, and I think I shine brightest when I have someone to look after, not so much take care of in the sense they can't do it themselves, but knowing that there is someone who depends on me makes me want to do better, be the best. Now that I have my own place I guess I'm just ready for something with a lil more sustance, something real. I'll keep ya posted.



Herro

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Al Moody Mookums [15 Oct 2008|02:04pm]
mood // hyper

One of my friends recently became homeless due to what I'm gonna call unavoidable circumstances. I couldn't let him sleep in his car for a month and still call myself Herro, so I did the right thing and let him stay with me. Even though he is goofy as hell he is one of those philosophical kind of guys who thinks deep and tries to stay ahead of the game, on that tip we are similar but I will say he is loud as hell and sometimes can get annoying but after spending so much time with someone I suppose anyone can. I find more and more things annoying with nick the longer I live with him, Idk how ima do this for an entire year. Just a couple nights ago al, nelson, and I decided to pay some guy a visit who is messing with nelson's kinda girl. I won't say our intentions because that would be ungentleman like but luckily it didn't come to that anyway because we couldn't find him. Besides I have better things to do, like find another job and car. I'll keep ya posted.



Herro Gray

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Update [12 Oct 2008|11:12pm]
mood // determined

Ok now a real entry, no sugar coating. Life back up north has been great yet hard as fuck at the same time. Now I have more things to do than I know what to do with. I honestly can't keep up with it. There's over a dozen ppl that I said I would hang out with and I haven't even done it yet. Life is just crazy on your own, on some real shit. It's going so fast I can barely keep. I mean I know there are some really important things I should be concerning myself with like getting a new car and rent money, and yet I find myself still thinking about older issues. I need to just stay focused but it's hard. My family is going through turmoil, my father is really sick and just recently unemployed, my mom is depressed and alone, my brother just can't get his head out the clouds, and I'm just trying to figure out if ima make it in this state and grasp what matters most to me. Also I don't know why I don't update anymore like I use to. When I didn't have shit to do I would update all the time, and now that I'm doing stuff I just can't find the time to do it, I promise I'll try more but until then I'll keep you posted.


~~LaTeR dAyZ~~

Herro Raymond

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Business Conference [06 Oct 2008|10:15pm]
mood // pissed off

I came back from the business thing that my brother does and it's not as if I hate the business but he made me despise it and him and one weekend. When it comes to business he's such an asshole. It was him who asked me to go but once I get there he completely fucking ignores me and just becomes everyone else's bitch. Driving these dicks and around and doing their every wish. Not to mention he was acting mad phoney. I hate that! Because of that weekend I also got sick from staying out in the cold for so long. I don't think I'm use to this kind of cold yet. I thought it would be so much fun, but it was all just talking and I slept through most of it. It wasn't worth the 90 dollars I ended up spending. I really should have used that cash for rent or something. The only thing i liked about the weekend was coming back and going bowling with my co-workers. We "bonded." I'll keep ya posted.


Herro

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One More Step Forward. [03 Oct 2008|09:58am]
mood // cranky
music // Wonderwall by Oasis

Tank met with his untimely demise at the hand of this cold temperature. Right when I needed him too, I thought he sounded a bit funny but one night when I was coming back from work he really collasped, it happened as I was talking to Rain. I'm lucky I made it back alive, it got kinda dangerous towards the end there. After taking him to a friend of mine who is a mechanic he told me that I needed a new transmission hose. That shouldn't be too expensive, hopefully less than 100 dollars. Things are getting tight in the money dept. right now, while i like the ppl at lenscrafters they are unable to give all the hours i need partially because of the economy right now. So while I would love to buy another car to get a second job for the security I can't because I need more money to do that. Its a vicious cycle. I'll keep ya posted.

Herro

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[01 Oct 2008|12:50pm]
mood // confused

So things are working fairly well for the lenscrafters gig, i like everyone and what not but working for lenscrafters is not something i wanted to do for a long time. It was just to hold me over until I find something better. That something better might have come up, i found a job that pays amazingly but it's a salesmanship position which I hate. It's entirely commissioned based so If I don't sell anything I won't get paid, buy the beauty of it is I only have to make 2 or 3 sales a month to survive. Even I could make 2 sales in 30 days. Part of it seems like it's too good to be true. and when something seems to go to be true it usually is. But am I just being paranoid... I'm not ready to leave lescrafters just yet but it would be impossible for me to do both jobs, they conflict too much. So I could either leave LC and risk it all on this job or take the sure thing and stick with the company. Its a tough decision, but isn't life about taking chances? I've never heard of anyone big becoming rich from the ground up without taking major risks, maybe it's my turn. We'll see, I'll keep ya posted.


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